Choosing BRAVE as my One Little Word® for this year might seem like a strange choice if you're on the outside looking in for the last four months. I mean, it's not as if I've acted on the word in any way so far, is it? But I think that part of making a word work for you is growing in acceptance that you need the strength that the word can bring you, and that isn't something that happens on January 2nd.
As I worked through those prompts in February, I thought I had a better understanding of what BRAVE meant for my year. But in true-Cate-style (cause lets face it, it wouldn't be an introspective Cate-post if I didn't throw in a spot of self-deprecation) life got in the way, and I've wallowed a bit since then.
And then last week a newsletter hit my inbox. It was a bit odd, because I didn't remember signing up for it, but I clicked it open because I recognised the name from a blog I had stumbled on the day before - The Colourful Housewife. I read the newsletter, clicked through on a couple of things, then wandered off on my merry way around facebook.
Later that night, something caught my eye - a status update in one of the business groups I'm in, offering advertising spots in the newsletter of The Colourful Housewife. Hmm, thought my brain, maybe I'll ask for more information.
Which I did.
And I consulted Toni, as I do with all random hare-brained ideas that jump into my head. (She's no good at helping me decide, she always says "do what you think is best", just as I say to her, but she's a fabulous sounding board!)
So how exactly did I back myself?
Well, I purchased an advertising spot in The Colourful Housewife's newsletter.
You know how they say you've got to spend money to make money?
Well, I'm not totally trying to make money yet, but I am trying to grow confident in putting myself out into the world.
It might seem like an odd first step, throwing myself out into the inboxes of 50,000 people, and the facebook feeds of even more people, but it seems that when I finally trust BRAVE, I do odd things.
And if I get just one facebook follower, or one comment and one extra reader, well, right now that's pretty successful to me. (Actually, that's not true, if I only get one new reader I'll probably cry over wasted money, and seriously doubt myself, and wallow in pinterest and chocolate)
When did you last back yourself? Did it involve spending money?