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| july 19th, 2011 |
to lay my soul bare
but I keep doing it
because I hope that you're still reading
even when you're not talking to me
school holidays start this week
and another month passes that we don't see you here
and, if I'm honest, there's a little piece of me that is glad you're not here
because the argumentative teenager reminds me of me
but, the piece of me that misses you every day
hates the fact that you're not here
and I have yet to make it through one of these posts without tears pouring down my face
because I know you left here thinking I didn't care
but you're wrong
so very wrong
because I think of you every. single. day.
and Riley asks where you are
every. single. day.
and Natalie asks when Chloe is coming to visit
(every other day, really)
even Douglas asks regularly
(at least every other week)
and Steve gets home from work every day
and asks me if I've heard from you
every. single. day.
and it breaks my heart a little bit, having to say no
every. single. day.
(((hugs)) Cate... I can't even bigein to imagine how hard that must be xo
ReplyDeletethere can be nothing harder, but to be this honest and open ensures that we ur blogfriends can send some love and care ur way,
ReplyDeletejo xxx
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ReplyDeleteOh Cate, I don't know how you get through the days but hope so much that maybe your messages do get through to her, either by reading your blog or facebook or that special bond that mothers and daughters have. I keep hoping that one day I will read that a tiny baby step has been taken to reuniting you two as I know how much you desperately need to resume contact with her. Take care x
ReplyDeleteOh Cate, she knows. She also knows you will always be there. Rxx
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written from a mother's heart Cate!
ReplyDeleteI continue to pray that Chloe will find her way back to you. I do believe she thinks of you every.single. day ((((hugs)))
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