the last photo I have of you |
Dear Chloe
It's been just on a year since we last saw you.
That hurts.
Because I don't know how long your hair is now
Or what music you like listening to
or what subjects you've chosen for this year
who your friends are
or who the cute boy is that you've got a crush on
and that hurts.
{Natalie wants to open your Christmas presents}
but we have no idea if you actually opened the presents we sent you
or were grateful to receive a present from sweetie
because we haven't had a word of thanks from you.
and that hurts.
but we still sit here,
torturing ourselves over you
because a piece of our family is missing
and we don't know what to do to bring it back
Steve still asks me every day if I've heard from you
and the kids mention you every other day (including Caiden and Lana)
maybe one day you'll come back
I hope so
because I really need to hug you
biggest hugs to you hon - thinking of you - deb xx
ReplyDeletehugs to you Cate x
ReplyDeleteOh Cate, I can feel your sadness. I hope you are reunited soon. Rachel x
ReplyDeleteI know these post must be so heartbreaking for you to write, Cate, but I hope (as you probably do) that somehow your girl will read this and be reminded how very much she is loved and missed. As a teenager, my mom and I had issues, and I spent some time away from her without contact. In hindsight now it seems ridiculous that had to happen, but things did change and, well, obviously, you know that we ended up having a healthy relationship later on. I know your situation is a bit different, but I just want you to know that someday, somehow, there will be resolve to this. Sending you some great big hugs from many miles away! xo
ReplyDeleteBreaks my heart to read a post like this Cate and I hope that she is somewhere out there secretly reading your blog and knowing how much you love her. So tough, there must be days when it is overwhelming. I hope that, like Deb Turtle, in time you get that special mother/daughter relationship back.
ReplyDeleteI too send hugs and prayers your way Cate....and hope that Chloe is reading this and realising how unconditionally she is loved
ReplyDeleteAlison xx
Oh Cate, I love that you are still doing these posts & I'm praying for a wonderful reunion soon!
ReplyDeletesending thoughts to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI too hope that one day you are re-united with Chloe.
{{{Cate}}} My heart breaks for the pain this brings you and yours. I continue to pray that Chloe will return to your lives soon and then she will read your posts and understand how very much she has always been loved.
ReplyDeleteFeeling so sad and hearing your hurt and pain as you keep your heart open for your daughter... Hoping that one day, you and she will stand again in a warm embrace.
ReplyDeleteI so feel your pain, we had to let our older son go when he joined the navy a few years back, and now we are getting ready to say goodbye to our second son {he is also joining the navy!!!}
ReplyDeleteI know that your situation is different, and I sure hope that your daughter is reading your blog posts....they are beautiful xxx