the one without a witty title

I don't know how many times I've sat down in the last six months, frustrated because I've reached the end of yet another week with "nothing" achieved. Now, I am totally aware that "nothing" is completely subjective, because I actually do a lot with my days, but I don't feel as if I've done the things I need to do.

Look at those big patches of empty! Hour after hour after hour of no commitments! And yet, I still don't seem to do anything.

I don't have a large pile of handmade Christmas presents waiting.

I don't have a cupboard full of fresh baked goodies.

I don't have a menu plan that is easy for everyone to follow.

I don't have time to scrap, or sew, or read all those ebooks I downloaded.

But what is it that I need to do? And, given that there are so many empty spaces, what is stopping me?

Firstly, I need to create. But I stop myself by doubting I can do it.

Secondly, I need to get a routine for my days. But I stop myself because every time I find one that works, one of the kids gets sick, or I get sick, or something happens to throw it out the window, so I think "why bother?"

Thirdly, I need to take better care of me. Because the results are in, and I'm anaemic. But I stop myself from seeing the doctor, because I don't want to drink the vile iron supplements.

{and writing this post hasn't sorted any of it out, but has clarified what I think my issues are}

What do you need to do today?